Some days I drag my feet. I feel like I am running in sand. And then I realize, life is slowing me down. And then I am like... okay. I got this.

My days are filled with lots. Lots I love, with people I love.

I am fortunate to homeschool Victoria by my choice. I teach what I love. And I do only what is right for myself and my family.

I chose my odd working schedule because I want to see her grow and evolve to be who she is today. I took my first trip without her for 5 whole days to get my EquineOM certification. When I returned, her voice was different, she was a bit taller, and she moved differently, expressed herself differently—and I am just amazed. I created her in my little womb. She is her own, and I am here as her guide and guardian. I love her.

So then I think: how did I change in these past 5 days?

I found a bit more inner peace working with the horses. I felt more relaxed because of our connection. Not about the poses—because though we did poses, it was the breathing and the touch that helped me. Yoga got me centered with myself. It opened my eyes to the fact that I was picked on. I don't like bullies. And the horses haven't bullied me. People have—and for so long, I have always had a very small herd.

I don't like confrontation, though when something does not feel right, I vocalize it. Because if I didn't, I can't poo. lol

Yup. I hold it in my gut, like I have been stabbed by energy.

I was asked in the training to go, connect with a horse, and make it walk back, forth... But like in life, I wasn't comfortable doing that with an animal I did not know. So I just sat and connected. And that made me happy all by itself.

I do like to take things slow, and when I get anxious, then I go back to my breathing. I sat with this one horse and then we walked a little, and I touched its neck and then I sat, and then we walked... and that was it. Soon it was following me.

There are so many ways to approach animals or people. I prefer to move slow, and when I get anxious, I stop, find my breath, and move slower.

It was never about the poses. The poses allow the connection to become deeper—with trust, with proper transitions. I did learn what all I hoped for based on what they said we would learn, but I learned all I needed to.

This has opened the door for me even more.

I absolutely love Victoria like no tomorrow, but I love what horses make me face in a way that they don’t make me feel like at times I am failing. They take a different approach. They make me feel like it is all okay and to keep moving slow.

And if you see a horse walking—sometimes they kinda drag their feet too.
And that makes me happy.